hmm didnt noe for a 20 year old i could think so much..so much till the extend it hurts...
i dunno if im naive or not...
so many things are kept from me.
if i had not went around lookin at other's blog i would not have found out actually so much things are being kept from me..
why do i trust ppl so mcuh.. and end up gettin hurt... one who i treat as my own sister..actually betrayed me.. she knew.. but yet she still did somethin which i feel i can never forgive her for....
call me narrow minded but i dont give a shit.
im sick n tired of givin my all to everyone yet dont feel that they appreciate what i have done. Nobody appreciates what i haf done for them. Do they even KNOW what i did, what i put in.
ask around. how i treat ppl. why do i always haf to get this kinda shit. i dunno if i can ever trust anyone the same way.... it sux.. why do ppl lie. why do ppl hide stuff. why can they be open about it. why hide this from that and that from this. aww crap. i always give my best only to get back unrequitted feelings. why cant they show a lil appreciation?
mayb right now the oni person who really noes how i feel is cloney. since she came back to singapore. shes been thru thick n thin with me .... whether its my joy, my sadness. shes there with me. she cries when i do. she smiles when i do. are we really linked by telepathy? nobody really knows...while in uk. she felt sad when i did. and almost the next moment she msged me on msn sayin shes down and i did the same too. im grateful to what cloney has done for me. she wrote me a card before she returned. and i still kept it.shes such a sweet girl. im thankful that shes there for me all these while. Although Simpang bedok's really far. but i still managed to go there 3 times to hang out with cloney and the east siders ( J and Adr).
Cloney: though the road ahead may not be smooth sailin for u and I. But just know that i'll be there for ya when ya need me. and i hope u too will be there for me.. I trust you..hope u trust me tooo..
Trust.... something which is so hard to gain...
i can never trust someone the way i did before anymore....
secrets told and leaked... my own stuff becomes the stuff that haunts and attack me.. my own words used against me.....
irony
to those ppl: FUCK YOU all if you doubt me. you dont even noe me. you dont even noe what i am. you dont even noe whats goin on. So stop guessin and get a life. even if i was trash. im proud of myself. At least im true. im True to the person i love. im true to the ppl around me. i dotn go around fakin my friendship. i dotn take ppl for granted. you can jolly well lick my balls and go cryin on ur knees one day if you knew. Stop doin shitty stuff. you digust me.
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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