feelings.....
i haf all of them on one nite... why
i'll start with.....
angry
firstly... there are certain things i cant say.... there are rumours spreadin about angela... and im angry... dont understand why certain ppl can keep hurting her.. wont u fuckers just stop doing things to hurt her??? just fuck urselfs out of our lives will ya..... u fuckers better not let me know who started it..... esp u ... u fuckin puss...i hate enuff of your fucked up antics... stop tryin to gain pity now... cos i fuckin dont trust u after u had hurt her.. and yes this is directing at u...
and to the other fucker.... if u dare do anything to her.. watch out..cos i'll shave away ur hair and make u a ball for me to kick around with... i'll never let anybody hurt her.... i promised her already... so dont let me find out ... dont... by then.. be prepared to run.... be so prepared... and also fast.
upset
when i heard about it.... i broke down.. in front of her.... she keep askin me what happened... ask me not to push her away.. ask me to share it with her... i just couldnt tell her i knew about it... i broke down cos... i was so upset...why these ppl keep tryin to hurt her.... she was calm.. but i wasnt.. it was too much for me to take....i didnt want her to feel down anymore..... so overall that nite wasnt a good nite at all for me... for her.... and we had a small quarrel..... but i hope she understands that all i've done for her its becos i nv wanna see her shed a tear over anyone who isnt worth her time, her tears anymore.
tired
've been very tired recently.... i always cant sleep. if i do..i slp very early and wake up in the wee hours of the morning.. I haf also got myself into a situation that i wake up and go to the toilet to shit.. and end up feelin so awake n i just cant slp anymore.... i know i look like shit now... eyebags are coming out.. so bad... sighs! i need to slp lol.. but its been okay since im always talkin to her...
happy
i've nv felt happier. She told me," no matter what you did, i'll forgive you. Just dont leave my side. Cos i'll stand by you. always" i melted. Rie told me that rships are always built on trust. to even begin with, there should be trust. i trust her 100%. mayb even more.... so u ppl try harder if ya wanna make me not trust her okay? oh im goin to mel soon i guess to look for her. she wants me there after my attachment and i cant wait to put my name on the boardin pass. cant wait for the day i walk into the departure hall , into the plane and out of the arrival hall into her arms. My Birthday is coming and although i know she wont be around to help me celebrate but this will be my biggest and happiest present to receive... i know i will get it too heeeeee...
Angela
i dont know wat to say. I trust u okay. Dont worry. we'll all be here for u. Although u said that i may not be mature enought to handle this situation. Let me tell u, i know what im doing. I still wont allow anyone to bully you, you hear me. About ur financial situation, i will talk to mom soon and give ya an answer asap okie. I wanna say dont worry okie.I want you to enjoy your studyin days in melbourne wihtout worryin. take your mind off all these shity things yar? Erm.. anything u can always call me or msn me. i will always be there im sure u know by now. I will always be there.
take care, always
LeO
mood: as above
Listening to: Jay Zhou Jie Lun- Yi Lu Xiang Bei
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