im still sick....2 weeks le....since that Friday that angela left....i haf been sick till now....i might haf caught a cold in the cinema when i watch constantine....cos i think i perspire....den went in the cold cinema....so i guess im sick till now..... i dunno why leh...hope i will be fine soon....... heeee
mood : good...
Listening to: Kaci- Im not anybody's girl
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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Thursday, February 24, 2005 >> hmm.....
hiyeee!!!!
juz came in here to post somethings lor.. been to dinner with buddy Gary for 2 days le... and realised dat we havent been contacting for already a month...other then our trainings and games...i always seem to be missing in action...nv turn up for their gatherings and stuff...*guilty* but they know whats happening in my life and they understand...... we were talkin at anchorpoint the other day about girlfriends and stuff....realised tat there are contrasting differences in our friends' gfs....while one of their gf is very sticky...always want him to call and stuff...the other is considerate...knows when to call when not to...and also thinks for him....Gary told me that he likes the latter..mwahhhaas.... well...we tok alot..like in 1 month...dat i didnt hang out with them...this is the 1st time we chat for such a long time and alot of things too....really glad i asked him out for a chat.....
yesterday had match....and we lost 1-0 to ITE Combined...nv played but aniwae wats new? haha i told angela about it...and realised i was okay with it...even though i knew i should haf played......fcuk it... toked to angela about lots of stuffs online....and well thanx angela... :) heeeeeeeee..
to her: thanx for takin care of me, giving me the constant encouragements and perks that i need to pull myself together.... i know im not lousy...u noe dat im nt lousy too...and yeah..u are always there for me to tell me wat to do when i cant think properly...thank you...
to Gary: you played okay yest....he doesnt noe how to appreciate us...we are JURONG FC PRIME LEAGUE PLAYERS leh....watever it is...lets not give up our dream...remember we are gonna study together again...this time we shall be in da same course, same class everything hahas...den we'll be in da same Primary sch, Secondary Sch, Poly and also Uni hahhahahah.......thanx for chatting with me the other nite...really had a great chat...enjoyed it to the bits......
mood: okay lor
Listening to: Jolin Tsai- Dao Dai
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005 >> its been awhile...
hahhaha...its been awhile peeps..i know...thanx for droppin by my blog! its time for me to update, things havent been goin well for me....i get injured very easily...and at almost every trainin session...thinkin that i haf recovered i go to the next training again to find out my injury is not healed yet.... im so in pain...Last nite i couldnt slp...i needed painkillers...but i didnt slp much.....
Well, there are many things going on now...and im quite upset and angry now...but im not gonna take sides...i myself noe who is wrong who is right...but im not gonna be involved and say anything...i dont want any conflicts....
shit girl(nanako) and yong ask me out for movies yest...but i didnt go cos i had training...heard that " Hide n Seek " is a good show....hmm well...too bad den.. i saw a very touchin Mtv yesterday afternoon....its "Tong Hua" by guang liang....so sad.. he plays the piano...and his gf listen to him practise...when the gf was on the verge of dying, and he got a performance, he called her and let her listen to his performance, his singing through the phone....so touching...finally the gal died...
:( sad man.... but its very sweet..this mtv...one of my fave now....
mood: in pain
Listening to- Guang Liang- Tong Hua
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
3:50 AM
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Saturday, February 05, 2005 >> my day out
~my day out~
had a fun day out but it has led me to lots of thinkin....i've realised tat mayb there are somethings dat changed betw tha both of us ...what i want is a true, pure and happy Friendship, relationship...when finally last nite i reached home, i felt free...i felt happy dat i could do...unconditionally...who says tat 2 person needs to be in a Relationship? who ever says that there can be no friendship? for me, the most important thing is make sure that everyone around me is treated nicely...i hate conflicts,i hate ppl ignoring me...that is the last thing i would ever want...i dont like to haf the thought of why ppl is angry, ignoring me...but anywae...beautiful memories are etched in my heart, i love the way u love me...period... =) smile to a beautiful day...
*updates*
guess i think too much le...anywae...i feel really very tired now..dunno why leh...juz now sleep awhile haha feels so great...finally i sleep with a peace of mind...didnt noe it feels dat great to be free...i feel very touched...my grandma is happy dat im happy too....its great to see my grandma smile over my happiness...lols wat a cute granny...love her to the bits...
taken from "Broken" by Seether and Amy Lee
i wanted you to know,
i loved the way u laugh,
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
mood: free and great
Listening to: Seether feat Amy Lee- Broken
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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1:04 AM
Thursday, February 03, 2005 >> sighs...
~sighs~
here am i bloggin again....recently its been ups n downs for me.... i cant really go into detail as in to what... but what i can say is im finding it very difficult to trust myself anymore....at least someone lost trust in me for once...im sad cos i dunno wat happen...and i honestly haf no intention of makin ppl lose trust in me...so if you are reading and can remember wad i did...can u pls tell me so dat i will nv make the same mistake again? I noe that there are some issues tat make u trust ppl less...but i hope dat all those times dat u haf know me...i have NV lied to you in anyway...
to someone i noe i may have let u down at certain point of time( i donnoe when) ...but it was without malice...u noe im the blur kind and i might haf unexpectedly said or did something.....i haf so much things to say to you...Thursday i hope we can sit down together and haf a heart to heart tok... gimme a chance to explain everything okay....i find dat things changed a lil betw us..i can feel dat...i dunno why..but i noe...
im under tremendous pressure now...i feel im breakin down soon...Soccer hasnt been smooth sailing in recent weeks....the soccer team is goin to australia at the end of the year...during Nov...dunno if i can get to go anot...well anywae..not oni soccer givin me pressure..luckily for me i haf someone to encourage me...and im glad i listened to that advice... Thanx to Terrence...and Angela...
Last Friday was the happiest day of my life ever....i've nv felt betta...its all in my mind, my heart...and nothing can take it away....
chalet was okay...had fun with the ogk peeps....im not gonna say more about it...i love the chalet..period...
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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3:39 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005 >> for that special someone
You are not alone
Michael Jackson
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone
'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone
Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...
to that special someone, pls trust me...for im here with you....This song is for you...i hope that you know...
mood: in love
Listening to: Michael Jackson- You are not alone
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
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