im so stressed up -.-~~
exam starts tomorrow..
i finished studying...
but im afraid i will forget...
afraid what i studied will all be forgotten
im stressed
am i heading for depression..
i've been bunge eating...
i dont know...
nothing interests me anymore...
i've not been cooking,
not been playin the piano
not playin soccer for awhile....
im fat...
i donno wat im doing... i need someone to pull me up...
juz hope things goes well for everyone.. for me..
for her.. for us.... for Laura sis... and everybody who is impt to me in a way or another...
good luck to your exams...
mood: depressed
Listening to: Sammi Cheng- 美丽的误会
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
2:51 PM
2:51 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005 >> ~maybe, maybe not~
tonite...
is a night i wont forget....
baby and i chat over so many things......
the past, the present and the future.....
the past isnt important
oni the present and the future
what lies in place for us.....
i guess i already know what i want....
and i know i want her for life.....
the past doesnt matter............
oni the present and the future matters.....
im not gonna give up....
not on her, not on us and never will i.....
mood: i dont know
Listening to: Liang jing Ru- 燕尾蝶
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
3:33 PM
3:33 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005 >> late nites, out wif mates and feelings.....
do you peeps at any one point of time feel inferior?
hmm guess confidence plays a very big part right?
she told she has put the past behind her...
she oni has memories....
all she wants is me.... all she needs is me...
i guess i haf to be confident of myself......
she likes the confident and charming me.....
im enjoying life now... really enjoying....
im bonding alot with baby these days....
we can talk about everything under the sun.
recently, we have been talking to each other till so late.
Till the day breaks.......
but it doesnt matter...
we love each other so much.
so much so...
marriage beholds us ...
at least my closed ones love her.... so much ... im glad...
last nite's ktv session was good...
sang a few songs, went off early but glad i went.
Classmates for 3 years, Friends for life......
glad....
this morning, my heart broke..
my sister msg me dat shes feelin down
i hope you are okay... you know who you are......
me and my baby hope u are okay tooo.....
its 4 am in da morning.
im not da least tired.
im upbeat about the next day
im gonna learn how to play 童话 on the piano.....
great... my baby cant wait tooo.......
take care all my friends... after exams theres oni 1 week of holiday
for me..... 11th April... the start of the attachment program
right till 3rd sept....
the shaver waits for your heads
the shaver waits for your hair...
my friends....
its time to sacrifice.....
your good looks...
your precious time....
to the s*ckers ....
say good bye to your hair...
for now only the no.2 you all will haf...
take care .....
till then....
keep in contact my dear classmates...
Sen, Kc , Ziyou and Yang Xian..... SEDI YA!
haha
mood: tired
Listening to: ping guan and liang jing ru- 明明很爱你
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
7:46 PM
7:46 PM
Tuesday, March 08, 2005 >> School....and the future?
harlo peeps...
im in school right now. Dont really have any mood to study recently. I don't know why its like this.....Engineering Informatics is really not my cup of tea......but nv regretting getting to know my classmates though...3 years is almost up and yeah we're gonna part soon.... except for those extend passport de... hahaha.....
Talked to Gary the other day, its so boring that we have to study..... what we didnt like. Why didnt we go take Sports n Wellness Management in NYP..... i should haf heck cared about the distance..... and now i feel so lost... dont know wat to do for my uni. Im definitely not goin into engineering nor IT anymore......even if its taking private.... well i'll be either taking Business or Sports n wellness, hmm i really hope i can take sports n wellness...i hate wasting time on something i dont like.... I know if i like it... i will definitely ace it... and get a good job in the sporting scene in Singapore...... Gary too he is so sick of Biotech.... guess we're destined to be buddies....we hate the same things.... and we are interested in da same thing....
Gary: dont forget hor... we'll become classmates again... at long last...we oni got to be classmates for one year....dat was memorable along with kang and Thomas....
oh! forgot Angela's not really enjoying her time in Melbourne now.... cos she doesnt like Biotech and what she is doing now.... She has got lots of Assignments n projs on hand now.... 2 or mayb 3? and yar... she is going to be real busy...so yeah hope we still get the chance to tok often... heeeeeeee....
Angela: hey girl.... dont worry hor...i know you can do it....i'll be so proud of you when u get your degree k... i will also work hard towards gettin my degree toooo heeee....support me then okay? hahaha...
I know i will like doing and studying sports. It has always been my interest.....and dat means i will get a job in the sporting scene. At least that is my plan for the future....to get a good job in the sporting scene.... *note* Sports is a growin industry in singapore.... Government is pumpin in alot of funds into sports... there will be jobs available....if get a good job....can provide for my future wife *winks* so she can be a tai tai haha.... but important thing is to do something i enjoy...i also hope to fulfil my childhood dream, to be a PE teacher or a soccer coach...i may go take up Soccer coaching after my attachment. heeee...
Anyway, just went to Np Bazaar at atrium... to take a walk....the DJ played Zhou Jie Lun's version of Dao Dai.... nice...... dao dai's a really good song.... i really like that song.... and looked out for Post-it stickers and some stuff.... found it...bought it and now im back to our "hole" the project room where we always chill out.... the guys are all playin warcraft....while im here blogging......
yup and later im going to Clementi to buy some stuff..... and also go cut hair... heeee... wee at last cuttin this crap growin on top of my head hahhaa.....crowning glory? pui.... more like disgrace hahas... i betta go cut nice nice....im so sick of my hair.... hahahhahaa....feel like cuttin botak but..... cannot..... hahahahas......
Last nite, i was very happy....Dont know why... iwas in a very good mood.....i keep laughin n smiling. Angela says im crazy ah...dont know why hahhaa...anywae...Sat got friendly match ntss seniors vs Ntss juniors..... i play the junior side de...we won the game 9-5..... crap game... i scored 2 goals Kang score 3 Samuel score 3. Gary scored 1..... hahah fun ? nah not really didnt really enjoy it...but got myself a lil tan after sooooooooooo long.... and found out im finally injury free....but im still sick......
4 weeks and still counting...... izzit really physchological? hmmm i wonder..... ciao!
mood: great....
Listening to: Beyonce- Dangerously in Love...
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
6:08 AM
6:08 AM
Monday, March 07, 2005 >> Jose Mari Chan- Beautiful Girl.....
one of my fave songs now.....
Beautiful Girl by Jose Mari Chan...
Beautiful girl, wherever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again
you said 'hello' and I turned to go
but something in your eyes left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again
It was destiny's game, when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find that you were gone
wherever you are, i fear that i might
have lost you forever, like a song in the night
now that I've loved again, after a long, long while
I've loved again
beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
till all of your loveliness in my arms come true
you've made me in love again, after a long, long while
in love again
and I'm glad that is you...
hmmmmm... beautiful girl..
Mood: in love with that beautiful girl...
Listening to: Jose Mari Chan- Beautiful Girl
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
4:55 PM
4:55 PM
>> School....and the future?
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
1:50 PM
1:50 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005 >> From a friendster bulletin.....
Never Look Into Eyes When You Meant To Lie...
Promise Are Meant To Be Kept...
Wishes Are Onli Meant To Be Fulfilled...
Scars Will Never Heal...
Hearts Are Not Meant To Be Played With...
Lies Are Onli Meant To Hurt..
And Sorry Is NOTHING But A Word...
mood: agree with the bulletin
Listening to: Liang Jing Ru- Wo Shi Xing Fu De
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
6:56 AM
6:56 AM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005 >> good day/ bad day?
Today,
my heart sank.
I just dont believe in myself.
*updates*
great......
so much for a happy ending...
im not gonna work not gonna go for interview anymore
becos the boss says he needs no one...
pissed
:(
mood: good or bad? i dont know
Listening to: Zhang Dong liang- Hurt
fisherman's fren: leo ranted @
2:20 PM
2:20 PM
